Dreamworld (Narcissa privat)

Narcissa brød ud i gråd så snart hun forstod at han ikke huskede hvad der skete efter hendes fader havde talt til dem. Hun hiksede og hakkede og kunne først slet ikke få et ord over sine læber.

Da hun endelig talte var er usammenhængende og rodet

"I saw you.... we where there... and our child... peace, 'cus you... no fighting... you where so beautiful... Just like I see you... me wish... I hope... He saw you... like I do... Oh Azuriel... no fighting... do you see your strength... so beautiful, it hurts..."

Hun forsøgte at tørre sine øjne, men det smertede at løfte armen. Hendes mave gjorde stadig ondt. Hun rystede uhæmmet og kæmpede for at holde hænderne i ro på dynen.

"... so beautiful it hurts... he saw you... he showed you... you saw... darkblue eyes... so damn beautiful my love..."

Azuriel blinkede et par gange. Han forstod ikke første hvad hun prøvede at sige men efter lidt tid gik det op for ham hvad hun prøvede at sige. Han omfavnede hende og sukkede '' I am so sorry.. I really wish i could remember.. I do.. It must have been what i felt.. I.. But''.


Han blinkede lidt * Darkblue eyes.. Cool.. I would look so cool with such eyes.. Focus.. What would your dark side say.. ahh.. Think stupid.. Doh.. Think*.

Azuriel sukkede lidt og sagde så '' He used magic.. I think it was not for my sake he did it.. It was for yours.. Your dad wanted to show you the me you are fighting for.. The one you truely love.. And when i became that person.. I knew i was not ready to be that person in reallity.. I must have erased my own memory.. I remember i felt powerfull.. Now.. What did i say?.. Maybe i said something that can help us.. I am with you on this.. One hundred procent.. I want to become that person.. For your sake ''. Azuriel smilede oprigtigt til hende. Hans gode side var med på ideen. Hun var blevet vist resultatet men ikke vejen til at nå det.

Narcissa var mere end udmattet, hun var så træt at det var svært for hende at fokusere på det han sagde, men hun forsøgte virkelig. Igennem tårene og den hulkende gråd forsøgte hun.

Inde i hende bredte sig en kulde. En isnende kulde, en frygt for at han aldrig ville blive den hun så ham som. At han aldrig fuldt ud ville forstå det og turde. Det handlede vel i bund og grund om at han ikke turde give slip og leve med sig selv som han var? Én del af ham frygtede at være ond, den anden del af ham afskyede det rare gode væsen han var.

Hvis de dog bare kunne enes.

"I am the key to your unity... I will be the glue... that holds yin and yang together... you just have to understand!"

Hendes læber bævede og hun var nødt til at lukke øjnene. Udmattelsen var for voldsom og liggende ind imod hans varme krop lod hun søvnen rulle ind over sig som en orkan. Denne gang var der ingen drømme, intet... kun søvn.

Han kiggede ned på hende da hun faldt i søvn. * I will do what ever is in my power to get there.. I could see it in your eyes.. You must have really loved the person you saw in there.. Like you have always been telling me.. Its not me or my dark side.. But both of us.. But we did agree on loving you.. We but aside our problems and focused on our love for you.. That is the first time i really felt like we were one person.. I can't stand to see you like this.. I wish my darkside could have seen how you when you saw i was not the combined person.. Maybe.. maybe its not so bad to merge wil him.. I mean.. If you love me as one.. Then its worth it.. Lay down the hatched and join forces with him.. Narcissa.. I am with you on this.. I just hope he will be too*.

Az lagde sig ned ved siden af hende og kyssede hende på panden og lagde sig så til at sove.


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